January92012
words you will never read.
the last time i cried you did everything you could, in your own awkward way to make me feel better.
this time you sat there ignoring me and eating your shredded chicken salad sandwich. just made me look even more like a total ass hole.
i was falling for you.
there was all this unspoken shit. and you were so amazing with me.
and you made me feel happy just to be around you.
and all of that changed in a few months.
i cant tell you any of this to your face because im leaving and we wont even be on the same continent. there isn’t a point in you knowing, not that you seem to care anymore. but i need this to be out there so i can fucking move past this.
i’m sad that all it took was a shitty job to completely to change you. ive always only ever wanted the best for you and for you to be happy. and i wish you knew better, that you could always talk to me about anything, no matter what. there is nothing keeping me back here anymore. i would have stayed if you had asked. but you pretty much told me to never come back.
i missed you so much. and i still do because i dont know where you’ve gone.
and i wish you knew how much this hurt.
and cared enough to say something.
Tags: /words /love /friendship /end
